I was driving down the road the other day, on my way to work, thinking about anything and everything, when it hit me. An old cliche, for sure... but so true. It really is about the journey and not the destination. I've previously said that I was searching, but... for what? What is my goal here, exactly?
I suck at meditation. I really do. I can't even do it for more than 10 to 20 minutes at a time. My thoughts stray constantly, my shoulders hurt, I'm almost certainly not sitting with the proper posture, I get anxious. And I do it anyway. But what am I hoping to accomplish, exactly? Am I going to do this every day, and slowly improve with time, until one day I have accomplished perfect meditation, some enlightened state, some kind of ultimate goal? No. It's not about that, It's about doing it. However I do it, however I am able, right now. In the moment I am doing it. No matter how my thoughts bounce around, no matter what zen like or anti-zen like state I am in, It is what it is, I am how I am. It's not about reaching any sort of finishing line or becoming perfect. I'm not out to win any gold medals in meditation.
I'm never going to wake up someday and realize I have "found" God, "found" inner peace. Along this journey I am on, there is no finish line with a ribbon and balloons and some pretty little trophy of enlightenment. It isn't about that, It's about the journey itself. Again, I hate to be so cliche, but it is so true.
Wherever you are on your journey, that is where you're suppose to be!
I suck at meditation. I really do. I can't even do it for more than 10 to 20 minutes at a time. My thoughts stray constantly, my shoulders hurt, I'm almost certainly not sitting with the proper posture, I get anxious. And I do it anyway. But what am I hoping to accomplish, exactly? Am I going to do this every day, and slowly improve with time, until one day I have accomplished perfect meditation, some enlightened state, some kind of ultimate goal? No. It's not about that, It's about doing it. However I do it, however I am able, right now. In the moment I am doing it. No matter how my thoughts bounce around, no matter what zen like or anti-zen like state I am in, It is what it is, I am how I am. It's not about reaching any sort of finishing line or becoming perfect. I'm not out to win any gold medals in meditation.
I'm never going to wake up someday and realize I have "found" God, "found" inner peace. Along this journey I am on, there is no finish line with a ribbon and balloons and some pretty little trophy of enlightenment. It isn't about that, It's about the journey itself. Again, I hate to be so cliche, but it is so true.
Wherever you are on your journey, that is where you're suppose to be!
My oldest kid keeps telling me I need to meditate. Oh, it soooo hard for me. I mean, I have to just SIT there! LOL So hard for me. It took ages for my hubs to get me to go get a massage b/c I have to lay there and do nothing for more than 5 minutes.
ReplyDeleteAnyway...yeah...I'm coming around to thinking about trying to meditate. I use "It is what it is" about EVERYTHING in life so it helps to know I can use it in meditation ,too ;-)
I can so relate with you Mandy...about the best I can do is 10 minutes tops.... What a lovely blog! I look forward to following you dear:-)
ReplyDeleteMost people can meditate and do meditate. But since it's not sitting on a prayer rug with incense and bells in the distance, they don't call it meditation.
ReplyDeleteHave you ever been driving and find your self at your destination with no recollection of how you got there? I mean who was driving the car, and who was absent?
Watching fish in a tank, planting a garden, painting a picture, mowing the grass. Sometimes we all go to nothingness.
It happens naturally, because you are keeping your self busy from those thoughts that come creeping in. Your mind can then exit for a minute, or twenty minutes.
Part of meditation is accepting those thoughts that come creeping in and gently letting them go. The thoughts are nothing to fight, they are just there. Once you stop fighting them, they will be easily released.
You are right on Mandy. You are exactly where you should be. Thanks for the reminder.
~crow
You're not being cliche at all. I think many of us wonder the same things at times.
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